Really hate it. Even with my insights of this chess game. I avoid unnecessary pain. I still find all pain difficult. But being pitied is the worst. I would rather be disliked..
So sometimes I will just test. Myself others I know or a stranger. It's interesting how it plays out. Even if it's pure rejection.
This concept used to confuse me, and I thought I was a masochist. I mean I am a masochist, but now I see the difference between beneficial suffering and useless piling on. Learning to suffer well when you're a masochist is like learning to eat when you're anorexic.
This is a similar idea of being comfortable with being uncomfortable. Growth and change require discomfort. While I'm very open to allowing new people into my life, but I'm very selective who I keep around. As a quote by the great Picard from Star Trek *You're only ever really as good as those around you. Your crew become a part of you. Complete you. They lift you up
to accomplish the things you never could do alone.*
I don't tell people I am dying.
They look at you with pity..
I hate that.
Really hate it. Even with my insights of this chess game. I avoid unnecessary pain. I still find all pain difficult. But being pitied is the worst. I would rather be disliked..
So sometimes I will just test. Myself others I know or a stranger. It's interesting how it plays out. Even if it's pure rejection.
This concept used to confuse me, and I thought I was a masochist. I mean I am a masochist, but now I see the difference between beneficial suffering and useless piling on. Learning to suffer well when you're a masochist is like learning to eat when you're anorexic.
This is a similar idea of being comfortable with being uncomfortable. Growth and change require discomfort. While I'm very open to allowing new people into my life, but I'm very selective who I keep around. As a quote by the great Picard from Star Trek *You're only ever really as good as those around you. Your crew become a part of you. Complete you. They lift you up
to accomplish the things you never could do alone.*