2 Comments

When I was 19 years old I had panic disorder and it was so bad that I started thinking about suicide. My main fear was inevitability of death. Funny enough when I was fully willing to kill myself for the sake of stopping this pathetic existence I stopped having panic attacks. I now know about psychological method of overcoming panic disorder by accepting mortality. It is a harsh one but it works. Another thing that helped me was the idea that if death is inevitable it means we are already dead and it means we’ve never been alive. (You are dust to dust you shall return)

Expand full comment

Whenever someone has asked me what do I fear the most, the answer is usually death indeed. Before getting my first ever surgery it was a thought that haunted me on daily basis - what if..? Even tho everyone said that my surgery should never end in something like that.

You somewhere mentioned having kids and how people wants to have them. Can’t necessarily say that I don’t want to have them, but carrying them for those 9 months would probably be somewhere in the list of top fear, if not even right next to the one already mentioned as weird as it may sound. And it also can end in death. It’s probably a weird type of fear since everyone around sells it as a great experience or as a bare minimum hopes to get that experience.

Expand full comment